I'm back from a long Blogging Hiatus

Finally I'm back from quite a few months of blogging hiatus though still keeping myself busy in creating lenses and hubs most of the time. So keeping this entry brief so there..

#MusicMonday: The Fireflies Song in ASL

Song of the Day: Fireflies by Owl City



Today I was trying to pick the perfect soundtrack of the day that somehow goes along with the exhaustion I felt towards the happenings of the day. And yet to my surprise I found myself fascinated with this Fireflies music video in ASL.

I'm an Idiopath, so what on Zazzle

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Current mood: Tired/Bipolar

(This is still in regards to Blogging Against Disable-ism Day 2010)

Feels like someone cast a whirlwind of inspiration when I found myself working on a few designs on Zazzle so far I'm pretty much contented with the results. Since it's not been days past since BADD Day I thought of creating some stuff that promote disability empowerment if not something that can relax me as I went through the day.

I've never been good at designing stuff here and there. I'm not pretty much an artsy-fartsy person like my sister does still I found the idea of designing a relaxing job for me.

What do you think?

It’s a BADD DAY! You heard it right, Blogging Against Disable-ism Day 2010!

Tempus Fugit! Times flies as the phrase implies who would’ve thought another BADD Day has gone by?

I remember writing an entry last year in the same exact date, in the same exact location though pretty much I feel like a different person today.

To give you an idea to what BADD Day is, it’s basically a day for blogging about disability related experiences, awareness; empowerment, eradication, discrimination and issues confront a disabled person in this mixed up world.

Somehow, I’ve grown a lot in educating myself about disability in general as well as about my condition having Idiopathic Carpotarsal Osteolysis which is very much rare in the world chances are. As much as that I can say the level of acceptance on my part eventually came on the surface that when you are midst of a tough situation you just know to yourself that this is just a phase or stage of what you are going through. We all go through different stages in our life some brought us to the worst and yet some still brought the best in us.


Since I wrote that entry online I met the wonderful Svarre family from Denmark one day through a message in a social networking site Facebook from Michael that his son Magnus also had the same diagnosis as mine after reading and moved by the information in my blog all about “Idiopath” well that’s how I call myself and I felt it is the much acceptable shorter term for a medical condition which a few people even barely know.

It’s a great feeling to read on a message that people actually read my blog and the fact that a father’s love to his son that despite all the difficulties he’s very much willing to understand of what his son is going through especially in the nature of this condition once you are being struck when you are a kid sooner or later you will feel pain all over your feet, knees, hands and until you can hardly walk in your both feet and knees. It sucks the life in you and you have no one you can ever turned to but your parents who doesn’t even have any idea that their son’s or daughter’s life can never the same again.

It's a great feeling to know that I'm not alone in this battle against disable-ism and its not over yet. There is someone out there who finally heard my voice that I actually can talk to relate whatever we are going through and what every parent has to go through in fighting this idiopathic disease or unknown cause. With all this cause that my own parents had gone through is very much a hard ordeal to shoulder with. As years goes on, I learned to appreciate more whenever I see parent's of special children that have to undergo their own kind of trauma in searching the answers to their child's medical condition.

With all those confusion in my parent's mind, you should expected it because I live in a country where the health and social security system is unstable to provide for its citizen as well for those disabled individuals and not to mention about the education and nourishment.

Let alone these disability statistic in the Philippines speaks for itself as of 2005:


1) There are an estimated 7.5 million Filipinos with disabilities in 2000 based on the World Health Organization’s assumption that 10% of every country’s population has some form of disability. In 2004, the Filipinos with disabilities would reach about 8.3 million.

2) The Government estimates that 70% of those with disabilities live in rural areas where services are often not accessible.

3) Past attempts to include persons with disabilities in national census surveys have not been successful for many reasons, including the refusal of families to declare that they have members with disabilities.

4) The 1990 census of population and housing indicated that there were about 755,000
persons with disabilities, only 1% of the country’s population based on the same census.

5) A national registration conducted by the Department of Health in 1997 showed that there were 469,707 persons with disabilities. This figure was not officially recognized.

6) The persistent armed conflicts and bombing incidents in the southern part of the country are expected to increase the number of persons with disabilities.

Having mention this statistics, it's a wake up call for the people in the Philippines that we are also part of the issue here. This is something to think about especially in the upcoming 2010 Philippine Presidential Election on whom do you think among the 2010 Presidential candidates can contribute to a change for our people and at least to our rotten system. I may not be a know it all person equipped with all the political knowledge but somehow keeping these consideration in mind will definitely make a big difference.

Thank you for reading my entry for this year's BADD Day!

I hope you learned something at the glimpse of my side of the world. Yes, times are tough but only tough people will do. Never, never, never give up! I heard someone said that to me. A well done advice.

Disability Statistics Courtesy of Disabled People and Development

Fish Koi Designs from Zazzle

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Just in time with the Summery day, I finally gave it a try to make a few design on Zazzle inspired by the beach and everything all about the ocean. I'm actually missing the beach right now so I thought Fish Koi in my aquarium would be a perfect theme design for this season.

I am so excited about this somehow I enjoyed the time creating each design with the joy in my heart as if I'm really got to see the ocean myself plus it works so well in Squidoo lenses too coming up!

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Sadness, the real deal..

Sadness begets sadness.

Still struck with the happenings of the day pretty much on an emotional level of attachment when you are kid you tend to linger for something so precious like a pet that you can’t hold on onto even for a minute. Though not a kid anymore just a 24 year old kid that is! Just the thought of it left me totally feeling exhausted being the most emotional person that I am, I’m sure you can just imagine the throw of emotion I can show you.

I just know when something is wrong with me when I tend to act the opposite and verge on the hype of everything I do while coping up in a certain situation. Have you ever had of those episodes as a defense mechanism? Instead of focusing on the negative facets of life, you tend to see things in a different perspective and in a much brighter light that somehow everything happens for a reason crap mentality. It surge you to accept the level of reality that, No, there’s got to be a way better than this or else I have no choice. That’s why some turn into food or anything that can lead you out into that deep, dark room of depression eventually piling up on your way before you even discover, you are waiting to explode.

Having said that, it’s all some kind of observation when the going gets tough, the tough gets going in real life which can be draining at times. It sucks the life in you. Pretty much the life I tried to live in right now. So far, I don’t have the right complain for the thing I can do and cannot do for it pushes me to strive for more and hunger for that deprivation whatever it is. Though in some cases, I try not to focus on the things that can shake my faith as a person as long I still have the people who are also with me at my worst and at my best most especially I’m pretty much okay on that.

I believe that you don’t need to rush things to get hold the goal you are anticipating for as long as you work harder on your craft no one has the right to question your ability as you serve it right. Now I’m trying to focus on the more free-spirited me which I need to contemplate on that surreal level of myself in the near future.

You can never be the person you ought to be in a matter of minutes or days; well it takes time to get used to yourself for whatever you want to do. But the toughest game to do is to know exactly what you wanted to do. It sounds like the much complicated me but the thought of typing those words is what I really mean to say. It’s hard to do when you don’t know what’s in there and what you wanted to do.

Well, that is very me in the past few years of verging and searching thoroughly the purpose why I’m still here and what can I do to make a difference to the people that surrounds even for my own little way. Though still didn’t did much in this life but somehow I’d learned something to be matured enough to say that we should know our goal, our purpose and find a way to act on it. Though there’s still people who are very much widely awake but don’t even opening up their senses that they need to be responsible on their actions no matter what it is. I’m quite puzzled how they seem to wake every morning, go to work and do their job but the real passion is not there and they can even hurt you until you can never be the same again…

With my Martini at home

PS: RIP Martini & One Eye. I'll sorely miss you both...

Being sober is a lame excuse for not working today...

Everything started out as one roller coaster ride of emotions to the extent I’d almost forgotten how wonderful life is. I wrestled with my inner self that somehow I can do things all alone and keep the fine fight of faith which I truly believe in. I was fuming with anger the other day to what I believe a reasonable reason to react out of my fragile nature naturally and it’s just makes me feel better! I’m telling you.

Though I told myself, they cannot let me down by circumstances that this life has to offer so to speak. I chose to rest my case for the moment to face the much lighter things of life to help me grow as a person as a sole individual capable of growth.

I guess, I’m all up for finding the positive reason out in every situation it leads me to. I know, I shouldn’t stop there every day is an endless possibilities because everyone deserve second chances or maybe not.

Too tired...

I am being asked a few days ago via twitter of what basically my blog is all about. Is it what really happening to me or am I some sort of a walking fictional character merely existed in this blogosphere?

Without any offense, I felt that's ridiculous. Of course, I do live and breathe.

It just happen that this is the outlet I'd chose to release the tensions, the joys and the triumph of my everyday life.

Macha, the Winking Cat

I prefer to see life as it comes on my way. I don't make plans for myself even for something I couldn't last to finish but of course I never say die. I know deep in my heart that I had a purpose. Jehovah has a purpose for me and when I started do something I just accept it as it comes without expectation nor excuses.

Simple as that...

x----

Feels like there's no easy way out to sleep well tonight as so many thinking thoughts rummaging through at the back of my mind. I know, how a prayer can be a powerful tool in a crucial times like this when I'm barely exhausted with issues suddenly surfacing in real life. There's money, family matters, arguments and nothing but arguments. Feels like for the first time in a very long time I'm all alone tied up into this chair searching for a silver lining out there at the end of the day. I'm almost there and yet so far.

And there I realize how I can't do this all alone. I need a pillar of strength to grasp on to escape this seems inevitable, dark loneliness coming from an abyss of resentment slowly taking its place in my heart. I got terrified of being mad at someone and scared of myself as I'm losing my grip at anger. I just need everything to voice out that, hey you, did you forget I'm still alive? I know you didn't even care but I'm hurting by the hurt you had caused that is seems irreparable right now. I'm only human. I'm not perfect and I can't live up to your own expectations. If you cannot take me as I am, better deal with it. Period.

Of all the people you may ask I had better issues and got loads of them in my drawer that I really need to bury it down. Somehow, it will take a matter of time on everything to get resolve which I actually don't lose the faith. Just don't get me wrong all the random rants I chose to bury them here instead of keeping it in my chest. Sometimes, the longer it takes you to rest your case can put all your energy down the drain as I'm trying to live my life no better nor worse.

It all sounds like a routine to be in all over again. I just got sick of getting into the arguments again but if it's the only way to straighten up things and be heard why not. Anyway, mind you as I keep on ranting my rants I'm not even aware how time flies its another month again coming. Feels like I'm not still prepared for the month of March to come so many things going on as for the most part its all issues I dare to worry my mind as it keep on coming.

I only have one prayer tonight, may everything put into its place as I'm wishing hard not for a perfect life very impossible rather for the strength amidst my condition. Now I need to work on new ideas for new contents, new niche probably and discover new things to acquire knowledge with all my internet-content business. I don't know how they call that!

May the force be with you.

How can you ever still loved a person who cause you so much pain?

As much as I tried to be reasonable at these times I can't seem to find the courage just to ignore everything as of all the person on earth why is he be the one who would cause me so much hurt churning me up inside in the least I expected.

I am choking somehow with sadness asking why eventually all things turned into this kind of mess my father has put us through. Never in my wildest thought I imagine seeing his pictures online with his other woman that kinda looked like a big internet scandal to me. It just losses everything I imagined him to be as this person who was deserving of our respect and attention being the great father he once was if there's a moment I can remember but sadly things buried forgotten. I know, I'm not the only one in this world in this kind of circumstances having these issues to their fathers that always been feels like a lifetime to me. It felt like a literal slap on the face for seeing how has life gave them more privileges that supposed to be where my place in the first place. Though I'm not the only one whose suffering the betrayal and being cheated by someone he promised to spend the rest of his life with. So, guys have you ever asked yourself a thousand times or even a million times before cheating on to your wife because everything has a matter of consequences whether you like or not.

I just told myself I'm a big girl so I better take the toughest skin as ever amidst the adversity coming on my way. As much as possible, I'm trying not to hate the person but hate the things about what he did because I don't tolerate things and justified what he did as some part of the norms that guys often particularly as them being father to cheat on your mother. I know one day things will be over someone would say. I just want to vent it all here because it is the only thing I have right in this moment I am writing this. So readers bear with me it's just one of those 'madness' again.. It just sucks really. Everything about it.

In Sickness, on Writing and Reading.

I’m on the verge of 3 day sickness blues as well as the heavy coughing for some time now. This occasional fever at night doesn’t do me any good. How can I be so sick when summer is fast approaching? Methinks, as if I’m inclined to go anywhere but no other plans yet.

Again, today I’m all bound to get my head up in making and writing a few lenses when it seems that I’m losing the energy to make some stuff done. Now I’m thinking to take a few course lesson this summer which indeed what I needed right now. I need to boost up my resume in all means by getting a diploma either in Marketing or Human Resource this time. But what do I know about Marketing as well in Human Resource? Somehow online marketing could be more interesting just like what I learning some techniques from years back.

Failure is always an option. Ever since I got rejected by a “job writing interview” last month, I’ve never been so assured of myself and with the things I am doing especially when it comes to the field of work content writers do. Somehow, we are considered as ‘ghost writers’ and lucky enough when our names are being acknowledge when someone bumps into one of our blogs and content pages. We experience all kinds of exhaustion physically, mentally and emotionally because we as content writers are often neglected by the writing society. Yes, we might not be tied down in an office cubicle or a publishing company but we still do exist. Instead, we do our best to show up in our jobs at the comfort of our office home.

Is there a writing society? As I have mentioned it seems that there is. People in all forms can measure your writing techniques, criticize your choose of words and let them fit you into a certain standard in their supposed the precise technical standard in writing.

Writing articles online is surely a vocation. This is the life I chose and somehow the earnings I earned through this are what a satisfaction in my part. I admit I’m not a writer or all-know-how type of person either when it comes to what is ‘in’ for the most part. But I do write for the benefit of those whose hunger for knowledge in an easiest way they can get through the internet. I basically write for people whether some would like it or not.

Though the everyday routines can overly boring at times. Needless to say, I can’t count on how many times I nearly fall asleep in the middle of a long overdue unpublished lens. Now I’m back to my book list and almost finished reading a novel by Paulo Coelho. It is somehow part in my goal to widen the range of reading literature and nothing can beat the best part of what a good book can offer at the end of the day. It lets go into thinking some kind of Trans in other worlds where I hastily dreaming to go to one day.

So far, one of the hardest books in my collection that taking me some time to read in a regular basis I mean in a matter to finish it is the Bible. Feels like I’ll need an extra effort to see through the pages beyond the eagerness thought of reading because I only want to finish it. I know I can do it.

What chapter did I finish the last time I read? I was done reading the book of Job and there goes the other books in the Old Testament. That is probably one of my favorite books in the Bible ever. I cried with pain as if I’m Job when he experience suffering, joy and restoration. If you are more on the spiritual side you know what I mean. It is the most heartbreaking night after reading Job’s life ups and downs.

Hey, let’s play a game plan. Make a list of the books you are dying to read maybe in a matter of days, months or year. You will be amaze on yourself on how many you can collect to put up your very own library in your room. No forbidden books, please!

Monday Madness

I started a little off this week. There's the dreaded flu, runny nose and fever. It always does happen to me every time it changes the month. February pretty much nothing is going on special lately.

I'm still riding the same old routines but it's not very like me to welcome any negative facets of thinking as this very moment. Though I know at the back of my head, it linger still the issues of the family and that is something no joke to be in the first place.

I guess, we all get tired at the issues at times and it feels suffocating inside the bubble. As well as the feeling of being angry the other day somewhat consumes me before I get sick. Why is that there people who are trying to be so superficially sweet and all of a sudden they would angry at you when you didn't gave them what they need? I'm totally sulking the other day that somehow it fall over the place and mixed up everything.

Okay it pretty much summed up what I am feeling today. My head still achingly pounding. Now I'm planning some clock watching real soon or maybe curl up with a good book.

random rants about being 24

So after some merrymaking days I came back to my old self again. I was selfishly keeping all the thoughts to my self as if my life ever mattered to the world of blogosphere. I just don't know what to say anymore. Or it's just the right way silently for me to put it.


Again, there goes in the left corner the same old fancy table cluttered with my hair dirt, cat's fur and a few book stacks waiting for me to read. This is exactly the same bubble where I used to spent all my waking hours desperately thinking how life passes swiftly to anyone but not me. If there's anything in the world that came to my realization right now is that 'life isn't fair after all'.

It's obviously stupid for me to ask questions on why can't I just be where I want to be and not feeling this certain limitation that I haven't felt for such a long time now. This is something I really tried to disregard without any doubt, a reality check I never dare to fathom. It stinks how I cannot possibly enjoy life to the fullest which is very much impossible to attain or somehow at least to break away from these barriers not just once a month of going outdoors. I miss attending regular college classes which I believe I could finish anytime whenever I want to but not now. Until someone good told me I better stick to my writing course because this is what gives me all the good fortune cookie. Sounds like a sweet tap in my back that finally I was born to do this or maybe not and there I was exposed to this online contributing business where you are commonly called 'SEO' in your own right. Basically, I could have done more if not because of this limitation which I kept on overcoming everyday not because of the limitation rather by the circumstances it brought along. Somehow, this is the same reason why I'm fond of cats which most normal people won't understand the sense of companionship and comfort they tend to show you. Just like I said before, I were going to do the same task mostly everyday like these stuff I might already went insane to death or else you'll find me talking to myself which I don't want to happen. In any case, I'll stay sick in a matter of days or two for too much tweaking or copy write myself. I know, it was absurd, depressing and a little bit of everything.

De-cluttering is one of the most everyday chores I am not enjoying the most too and I know you do. It's quite of a big deal for me to keep on going without the things I get used to well I should have included that in my resolution's list instead, I will tell you when I get there. It's just that the mind has a hard habit to break.

Last Thursday 04 Feb., I turned 24 somehow the age I dreadfully dreaded aside from being 25 next year. The world of adults are too much crap! They pretend to be grown-ups but they aren't grown up at all. One more thing you know that I came from a family who don't celebrate birthdays, Christmas or any festive pagan belief that contradicts the Bible so it was somehow a typical day. The dinner was awesome even though it was rush and everyone is cramming to cook because my nephew mostly kids of my cousin are hungry waiting. Well, what people don't know much about me is that I hate grand celebrations or even parties which seems to kinda like a attention-getter-seeker galore. But I appreciate all the warm wishes, kind thoughts and memories from everyone I happen to came across personally and online. You are all amazing. Well, as much I'm having less fun on being cranky and complaining whatever goes through me at the end day, suddenly it starting to fade. It must be because all these things makes me better in the end it gets me more closer to the kind of person I really want to be that is truly who I am. I can impatience at times sort of a snob at times but I can happily say that I am becoming good in handling emotions now especially the moods swings I experiencing mostly everyday. It is somehow part of what you call 'maturity' in the process that is very innate in us. The water that runs too deep finally it subsides to cool it down I was telling that to myself the other day. Well, let us take one step at a time. There's no need to rush.

Notice how I started off this entry quite contrasting. Sounds like I'm on a bad day so far not that close but I'm obviously stating how routine kind of life seems so monotonous at times and tires you down easily. And this is how sadly I manage to live my life on a day to day basis. Sometimes, I tried to stick on matter that we all do have a choice and if this day I chose to be happy because this is my choice nothing would stop me from being happy. The choices we make in life is somehow what defines us in one way or the other. And this is what I love about living this life.

It is raw, pure and simple ME.

My one simple wish is that to wake up someday in another city some sort of time traveling in the unknown that would be a great adventure. To be more realistic speaking in my own terms, I NEED A VACATION! Will someone booked me a flight anywhere away from home just for one day? Someone out there listening who will spare some of that wish I will be grateful. Yes, indeed. Okay. Silly me! This is what you get reading too much sci-fi out of this world this world novels where a genie meets aladin shouting ABRA-KADBRA!

On the other hand, I'm also back on reading a few new and old books from the cluttered book stacks in my desk to collect more thoughts and re-collects. The house is more like a dog and cat shelter nowadays I'm enjoying the company of these felines so hungry mouths to feed.

I'm almost up til this late and I'm ready to start a new week. Keeping my finger's cross for nothing but just a smooth sailing, not much stress-free week.

Simply Breaking the Habit

For quite often than not, it's great to take a break from everything from time to time especially the things we commonly do in a regular basis. Yes, I do get bored at times. I don't know. It must be the feeling when you are working at home online and since this is what I get paid for I might as well mentioned about it. I felt that the routines are sickeningly overrated. Sort of we all need space to get out of our comfort zones!

It's not FUNNY though. Period.


Anyway, I mean all that in a good way to find a breather with the things I usually can't myself bugged all the time. This is still so far the greatest job in the world! I declared in awe and never really a doubt.

What else is new? Let me see, finally got the same old brand new hair-do that I use to carry on these days. Just need to straighten out the curls and get rid of the waves a bit for it was giving me real bad hair day. A combo of Revenge of the Nerds meets Napoleon Dynamite in the making! Picturing it, it was truly a disaster.

So I challenge anyone of you, get out of your mac or PC. Set aside the issues and the dramas at the back seat. Take a deep breath, curl up to read a book, go shopping for yourself or for your loved ones, watch a DVD marathon of TV series you loved and get a new hair cut or else that matters to you and see for yourself. It feels good to enjoy and live life!

Reflections of 2009

As majority of you might already done planning out your 2010 to-do list added some unresolved resolutions for the whole year round, I was thinking of boycotting the things I was expected to do or maybe not.



I felt so uncertain these days if I ever wanted a resolution in the first place. More often it came out as self-agreement of the things you wanted to do but chances are circumstances failed you in one way or the other. I just can’t stand to be forever bugged myself about what must be, should be and would be expected of me. A snap back of reality that we must embrace life as it comes everyday as a gift and better make the most of it.

Now we are entering into greater heights, a new century indeed as they say. Eventually because of all the things that went through the past year it made us into a better person than we are before. There are lessons learned, unfinished business, failed relationships, loss of a loved one, un-mend broken hearts, irreparable grudges and differences and the list goes on.. I must tell you it was never sound as easy listing on as all the memories as it brings all back to life. Picture yourself, into the depth of the situation feels like it’s the point of no return as it sucks all the life in you and the easiest escape you can ever found knowing to yourself that this too shall pass. I call it “madness”.

I guess, the madness is still there. It clings and it subsides. Though I am not complaining because it is what makes me more grateful to where I am now and to the amazing Mom who knew how to fight for her right and her children amidst chaos having a dysfunctional family. It was never her fault even though she shared her own shortcomings as well. I witness the sleepless nights dreading herself on what exactly went wrong in a relationship she’d given all her best. Our story might be a typical lonesome one but since it is my blog I have all the right to blog about it. Call it venting, a lame excuse, or another depressing entry again from me although it is a new year. So what?



Having your voice heard is what I got from her. We share the same passion to fight what is right even though it often leads us into a compromising situation. It felt good to see how we brave all the storms together to the pursuance of my education up to the chances of finding the right treatment and medication of this rare genetic bone disease. Pretty much my life depends on to those people who know how to cherish and treasured me as a person in my own little ways. Before I didn’t get the idea of why I am becoming so dependent a lot of times and why can’t I do some stuff on my own and be independent as much as I’d like to. I was bitter. I was helpless as I can ever be. I was basically the most pathetic person you’ll ever know on earth.

It’s not that I don’t dare to be open, it’s just that things doesn’t properly sink into me that sometimes life throws us anything. It can hit you real hard maybe throw you under the bus but it doesn’t mean you have to be stuck and be stranded in your so-called “madness”. I realized as they say, “No man is an island”. We depend on each other people in a good way. That is why I wouldn’t close my door in anything like new ideas for a new project, interacting to people, or maybe be more approachable this time. I don’t know. Most of the time, I lack the courage to be myself and I’m just so hard to deal with..

On the spiritual side, I must say having to know the TRUTH gave me the confidence to face whatever goes through the day and somehow keeping me grounded whenever I lost the sense of ability to discern the difference between love and hatred, fairness and equality, good and evil, finding good things in the hearts of people I came across. I was a social snob and prefer to work on my conversations in a written word rather than shout it all out. Though I totally admit I am not perfect I often can easily get irritated by petty things that doesn’t deserve to be. Anyway, it is not to be mentioned here. As I am reflecting after being 8 years in the truth, the more you draw yourself closer to Jehovah the enemies will make everything harder for you even though it varies from one struggle to the other. I felt being matured spiritually is not measured on how you are being nice to every single person you meet or how many hours you do in the ministry but on how you practice what you preach. I guess, that is the hardest part I ever did in the last year, well mostly every day. We need long suffering even harder today more than ever. But only Jehovah does see our hearts and knows all our intentions and it just melts my heart on how HE never fails us. I guess, that is the faith that moved my life to make me win every day life’s battle. Let’s keep ourselves be enlighten by the amazing God’s word. It is a refuge we can ever grasp and somehow it will straighten your path.

And for all the joy, disappointments, heartaches, grudges, hatred, appreciation, love and friendships and all of the above happened last year and those that are not needed to be mentioned here somehow let’s charge everything to experience.



Don’t cringe! I’m still the average everyday sane psycho you’ll ever think of and to those who knew me personally just meet me halfway!