I can't believe how much these level of hurt can make a great impact in my life. Have you ever been hurt so bad feels like you were living through hell all your life, a nightmare you kept on pinching yourself to be fully wide awake? I know we all do. Most of the time, we think to ourselves its better to run away from all of this mess.
A never ending battle I seem to fight with everyday wishing life will be fair somehow for me. I've been through a lot of ups and downs and a few bumps in the road but today was never like the day it was before. As it blocks out every positive in my system hoping somehow there is goodness among people. I should have known better how time flies, things change and people do change for the better and some even for the worse. I just can't stand the hypocrisy of some claiming they will stand behind you through the stormy times of your life but you always end up being alone.
Been tired of false hopes and irrepairable family relationships and individual differences that seems a never ending marathon of arguments and bad mouthing. I guess, it falls down to one thing: we can never be perfect neither do I am not perfect as we are all made of flaws and all. So don't try to look for perfection as for the moment you look upon it you'll end up in vain.
Never exaggerate your hope not until the specific things in your mind has finally materialize. It implies as well in dealing with people never lose hope but don't be too clingy for the memories are the only ones that stays. Be open with new ideas as well to criticisms that might can break or make your spirits at the end of the day. I know how much I wasn't aware to that until now and still struggling with how I am going to cope up whenever I'm down again to that darker road.
Now I'm writing all these things so that all the negatives will be erase and flew down somewhere I cannot go and to be at peace with myself knowing I didn't hurt anybody through these words. Sometimes, there are words that are better left unsaid. It does come so real to me. Someday, these things will be over and never an ounce of this hurt will ever hurt me again. It will surely does pass like a barred arrow which intentionally missed its target.
Hoping to write more positive thoughts next time.
To be continued..
A never ending battle I seem to fight with everyday wishing life will be fair somehow for me. I've been through a lot of ups and downs and a few bumps in the road but today was never like the day it was before. As it blocks out every positive in my system hoping somehow there is goodness among people. I should have known better how time flies, things change and people do change for the better and some even for the worse. I just can't stand the hypocrisy of some claiming they will stand behind you through the stormy times of your life but you always end up being alone.
Been tired of false hopes and irrepairable family relationships and individual differences that seems a never ending marathon of arguments and bad mouthing. I guess, it falls down to one thing: we can never be perfect neither do I am not perfect as we are all made of flaws and all. So don't try to look for perfection as for the moment you look upon it you'll end up in vain.
Never exaggerate your hope not until the specific things in your mind has finally materialize. It implies as well in dealing with people never lose hope but don't be too clingy for the memories are the only ones that stays. Be open with new ideas as well to criticisms that might can break or make your spirits at the end of the day. I know how much I wasn't aware to that until now and still struggling with how I am going to cope up whenever I'm down again to that darker road.
Now I'm writing all these things so that all the negatives will be erase and flew down somewhere I cannot go and to be at peace with myself knowing I didn't hurt anybody through these words. Sometimes, there are words that are better left unsaid. It does come so real to me. Someday, these things will be over and never an ounce of this hurt will ever hurt me again. It will surely does pass like a barred arrow which intentionally missed its target.
Hoping to write more positive thoughts next time.
To be continued..
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