Midnight hour glass

"if there's a will... for sure there's a WAY that we can call!"

After long hours of cropping, cutting and pasting... voila! There I already put up my very own blogger header that I should have made even before. I was totally out of the loop when it comes to art, drawing and all of the stuff related. It was so surprising that I really enjoyed it having to discover that it was a fun to do after all in this midnight hours. It seems that at this hour the day has just began for me.

No attempts for writing a Squidoo article right now. No loud issues to talk about primarily about What a boring life! I just heard you say. Everyday is chaotic in a good way I guess. Pretty much a blessing in disguise amidst all the buzz. Sabi nga nila "carry lang ang mga bagay-bagay"... I really do tried to keep it all that way just to blocked everything that most likely can take away my own peace in every second and everyday of this life. It seems that I've always been filled of so many good ideas to do.. Well, I was never out of things to do in a day. It was my way on to keep my perspective in all aspects.

Right in this very moment, I was some sort of brainstorming about a short story that I really love to write but it ends me up writing my blog out of boredom I guess. I think I'm slowly recovered but not totally healed all the injuries, all the wounds and all the pain that unconsciously surrounds me in every step I had went through in the past twenty-two years of my life.

So, my very last resort was to leave everything and aim for that will to choose the more healthier path. I am... I said, there will come a day when I will be through with all this... and somehow I was getting there slowly but surely. I hate to rush things to the way when it was not supposed to happen at the right moment.

Come to think of it, happiness doesn't define you as a person of what you felt, of what you hold, of what you are rather it is a matter of choice that in one way or another we can hardly see in our own very eyes. Sometimes, the more simple and the least things in life are the things can give you uber-joy that is so immeasurable.

But people do grow up. They argue. They do unplanned decision and even up making mistakes. People grew up in different levels and certain degrees but there are some unfortunately who doesn't at all. In any case I still don't know yet where I belong though I can proudly say that I've gone through so many things in life that I never thought I could've surpassed. I learned so many things that it made it possible for me to stand to where I am today and still be the person with a high regards to life's principles.

Minsan nga sa sobra kong attach ko sa lahat ng mga bagay, it seems that the weight of the world in my shoulders. I always had something to say. I always had something to fight. I don't want to take a break. For once in my life, I just don't want to connect and be unattached to anyone or anything and stay away from the norms just to remind myself that though I might end up a little messy and dirty at least I can say that I tried and I learned most of all.

"... I spit on my life. Death in battle would be better for me than, that I, defeated, survive." -Buddha

Wake up call

"You can't always get what you want". - philosopher Mick Jagger of The Rolling Stones once said.

I just thought the whole subject is overrated. For how many times we might found ourselves complained about certain things and even about the things we already have. Sometimes, the harder we complain; it gets no easier for us to move on into our lives and see what's on the other side out there that is still waiting for us to explore. Everything is a matter of guts to achieve what we always wanted in the first place. Keep in mind that there is still a big difference between what you always wanted from what you really need.

I know. I know... Look who's talking? Who the hell am I to make proper judgments here for I myself there's still a part of me that I can't still withhold. I'm not saying that I'm right and you are wrong. Everyone is entitled for their opinion so let me just talk. Anyway, it is my blog and I have all the right to say whatever I wanted to say.

Funny though while watching some TV shows this evening, I came across that song of the Rolling Stones, "You can't always get what you want". That is why after hearing that it stuck on my head as I am writing this blog. I knew the song even before I think a couple of years ago. I was really fond of listening to classic rock bands of the 80's, 70's and the cheesy stuff. So, its very timely why not a perfect title for a blog since my last posts has been so many moons now.

Well, I've always been an unpredictable person whenever you came around me. I love the how the randomness of certain things surprise me nor at times it does bores me to death. So, that was what I am into these days living my life with no expectations, no presumptions of what if this is and so far I loving it! I'm done through a lot of disappointments that is why I promise myself that I will not anyone or anything take away my peace! I really mean it.

I'm not broke or whatever. I just feel that you need to know whoever reading this. I don't know. Kaya sa mga heartbroken dyan, don't let the other person ruin your composure on how you are seeing yourself as a person. You deserve more better than her/his and always believe in your guts. No one can take that away from you. Weatherrr... weatherr lang yan!